Saturday, 22 December 2012

Xmas....

It doesn't really feel like Xmas this year.

I am finding it hard to keep track of time.

The dreams are...back...every night, every time I close my eyes.

I am just so tired...

Last night I had a dream that I saw the shadow figure outside my window, and it was so vivid I could have sworn it was real...

Between my medication and my sleep deprivation I can't tell where the line is between dream and reality so easy these days.

I have already spoken to my family about Xmas and made my excuses not to go...

I don't have the energy to wear any fake smiles or to explain the bags under my eyes.

I haven't spoken with anyone in...at least a week...I am not sure...and yet...

I don't feel alone.